As the red progress bar disappears from the bottom of my screen, you

Pull the coffee creamer out of the aether once again

I sit next to my dad and try to notice something new about the interview,

But right before this, he told me about how you passed away a few years ago

I watch as you parade yourself around an amused Mean Gene

My dad lets out a nose exhale like he always does around this point

I can’t believe I didn’t know until now, I feel betrayed that no one 

Brought the news to my attention– how you died driving a Jeep Wrangler

When I found out my grandfather collapsed while stocking a shelf in

The aisle of a store two towns over, I didn’t cry but I guess I was only four

But you’re on screen balancing creamer atop your head and

Tears start to well up in my eyes. The video ends.