Until then, just let me nod off

in the early afternoon

with the wind whistling through my windows

and my curtains that can't block out the sun that

beams down on my left forearm

Let me remember that exhilarating tranquility 

of my first windows-down summer drive 

Allow my eyes to be shut gently to darken 

out the things yet to be done and

ignore that ever-growing tightness in my chest

Someday I'll love Eli Clubbs

but for now give me that small respite and

it will be enough